Welcome 2013. I am honestly ready for the best of you. After the year 2012, I have found that I was struggling to find mere happiness and I guess my methods of finding this "happiness" just didn't work... I'm living the first couple days of the new era and yet I still consider my biggest lost my greatest regret. This is by far the worse possible feeling. Let's put it this way; being in love with someone who could never love you.....

My love for you was so pure. So genuine and exclusive that everyday, I felt I was content with every possibly aspect of life, good or bad. My personal level of optimism was high and my thoughts were clear and conscious. I honestly had never felt so alive and so blinded before.

It was clear at one point in time where our relationship was going. We were so ambitious of our future together and it seemed it were only a matter of time when you'd forever be mine. I could even recall a time when we claimed that there was always a reason why "we fought like a married couple". I leaned on this fantasy we had in hopes that, that dream would shift into a reality.

We live separate lives now and were so far from where we used to be. That's what you told me and now expectations of us is only a mere glimmer of hope that haunts my reality everyday. 

So please 2013, I dont want feel the way I do now. I am only asking for progression of my own well being. I accept the things I cannot change and I accept what has been done already. I just want progression.